"clothes that all feel wrong, itchy, pathetically aspirational". felt that deeply. there are some days when getting dolled up truly makes me feel better, and others when it doubles my discomfort and disgust with myself (physically, mentally). sometimes you just need to have "survival" clothes
felt lately I’ve been so clueless with how to dress myself how to look how to show myself because honestly I just don’t want to move I just find myself laying in bed not able to do anything not even the things I like I almost kind of feel like do I even really like anything I just want to be unbothered and untouched I feel so overwhelmed by the magnitude of life and I feel it crushing my soul I’m so sad I’m scared I don’t know what to do with it the decisions I’ve made for myself feel like I’m living with no prospects my living situation feels like I’m in a constant battle I always feel like I have to fight and I’m so fucking tired I deadass feel like the world is beating me down and has been for so long i just started rambling off after what I just read cuz bro that shit felt like damn same forreal the discomfort in depression and the ways I satiate almost makes the depression worse I love finding ways to indulge cuz it almost feels like I can pause for a sec but I’m constantly consuming I feel like I’m addicted to instagram cuz it’s the only thing I get like visually stimulated in a way that feels ok idk I just like looking at myself honestly I wish I could just watch myself but idk I just idk I felt like saying all this cuz same I feel like telling people I’m sad so sad i just can’t I feel like a hole I’m like how does anyone do this thnx for sharing I’m ok I’m just depress too idk and what u write résonnâted so u spilled I’m a lil embarrassed
"clothes that all feel wrong, itchy, pathetically aspirational". felt that deeply. there are some days when getting dolled up truly makes me feel better, and others when it doubles my discomfort and disgust with myself (physically, mentally). sometimes you just need to have "survival" clothes
felt lately I’ve been so clueless with how to dress myself how to look how to show myself because honestly I just don’t want to move I just find myself laying in bed not able to do anything not even the things I like I almost kind of feel like do I even really like anything I just want to be unbothered and untouched I feel so overwhelmed by the magnitude of life and I feel it crushing my soul I’m so sad I’m scared I don’t know what to do with it the decisions I’ve made for myself feel like I’m living with no prospects my living situation feels like I’m in a constant battle I always feel like I have to fight and I’m so fucking tired I deadass feel like the world is beating me down and has been for so long i just started rambling off after what I just read cuz bro that shit felt like damn same forreal the discomfort in depression and the ways I satiate almost makes the depression worse I love finding ways to indulge cuz it almost feels like I can pause for a sec but I’m constantly consuming I feel like I’m addicted to instagram cuz it’s the only thing I get like visually stimulated in a way that feels ok idk I just like looking at myself honestly I wish I could just watch myself but idk I just idk I felt like saying all this cuz same I feel like telling people I’m sad so sad i just can’t I feel like a hole I’m like how does anyone do this thnx for sharing I’m ok I’m just depress too idk and what u write résonnâted so u spilled I’m a lil embarrassed
don't be embarrassed, we are IN THIS together and it means so much you felt you could share <3 praying for moments of relief for both of us
This really hit close to home. Thankyou for being venerable and sharing your exeprince. I haven't felt this seen in a long while